New?

Yesterday before I close my eyes under my blanket
I looking a good forward on the next day
Because the next day is a big day for me

Today when I open my eyes
I feel empty
Undescrible by word
When time goes by
The feeling become more weird
Is like taking my big day away
I don't know what blow my big day away

A brand new year for me
Means that I have to throw away the old one and welcome the new one?

Old personality to new personality?
Old schoolmate to new schoolmate?
Old friends to new friends?
I rather keep all that to make myself happier
Or I never been through the OLD matters?
I confuse

I called a friend that same birthday with me yesterday
I feel something come back to me when he answer the phone
Although we lost contact for a period of time
But the feeling not going to be weird at all
But how about them?

Anyway
Happy Birthday for myself
And thanks to those who wish me

Behind My Eyes

We only have two eyes
That God gives us for observe the world
And we only can see things in front of us
We can know whats going on in front of us
But
Nothing is perfect in this world
Although we can judge which one is benefit for us
We do not know what happening behind us
That taking our advantages away or hurting us
Like the latest drama of TVB
We can't stop people for hurting us
The only thing we can do is protect ourselves

When I turn to my 180 degree
The lies cover with full of excuses
And you did it
I just get cheated
At first I really do not believe what my friends said
And at last I just get hurted
They told me everything about you
And I just believe that you won't treat me these ways
You did something that kills my heart on you
Well done
I have no comment on that
The only thing I can do now is just shut up and walk away
Last word for you are
"Love yourselves and protect yourselves."
Speechless

Learned how to protect myself
And learned how to turn my head behind
Thank you that taught me an important lesson that I never learn in classroom