Still Healing

A song that can only represent my feeling now, "Better In Time". Lewis really touch my heart and sing out loud of my sadness for this hardest period after incident happened.

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's going to hurt when it heals too
(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile because I deserve too
(It'll all get better in time)

I'm still healing too. And I just keep all the memories in my bottom of my broken heart, never share with others to reduce my sadness. Maybe we, including outsiders never ever think about the relationship was ended so fast and so sudden, but I deserve the all the pain too because I done something that shouldn't be done. Betraying spoils the whole thing. Maybe it's called Karma. I do not really know whats I'm thinking now, and I trying to be stronger and stronger.

Hit me like the ray of Sun
Going through my darkest night
You're the only I wanted
You gonna addicted to the light
I swear never fall agian
This don't even feel the falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again

Beyonce drop her tear when she singing "Halo" in the live performance of 2009 NAACP Image Award. Knowles written this song is dedicated for her dearest, Mr Jay-Z. Although in love, going through the sweetest part of relationship, don't ever forget the "gravity", it will "pull you back to the ground again". Hero to Zero. Maybe I took the wrong steps and everything become different. Never thought that the "full stop" placed so no peacefully.
But since the decision had made and I think just let the decision go. Follow the heart, I think time will tell whether the wound healed.
Suddenly love Rihanna's "Take a bow", especially these few sentences in the lyrics.

But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

and

And the award for best liar goes to you

I'm the greatest liar.
Still healing.

Repeat Made Perfect

My mind pop out something that really Random and I woulkd like to share with people. Just now went to toilet with my headphone, I realized something. Do you know why Lady Gaga's "Just dance" and "Poker face" can become the hits for '09? The reason behind it is REPEAT REPEAT and REPEAT.

Can't read my, can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
Can't read my, can't read my
No he can't read my poker face
Pa pa pa poker face, Pa pa poker face
Pa pa pa poker face, Pa pa poker face

The whole chorus for "Poker face" is just repeating the same sentences. Lolx. The last part of the song even worse, repeat for almost 6 times. What the heck! Gaga, will you sing the wrong part or miss one part when you singing live?
After know this funny facts, I just tune to "Just dance". Same story, Holy Shit! Maybe Gaga repeating the chorus is to made people easier to remember the song. But somehow Gaga's song not only using that technique, she also using the techno that heavy on the beat to make people can dance with the music, example Gaga's "Love Game".

Beyonce's "Single Ladies" also very awesome. Using heavy beats and repeating sentences that helped Beyonce's holding the awards of Song Of The Year in VMA '09. Maybe I have to thanks Britney. Random? Because the technique is from the single "Womanizer" by Spears. Can you count how many "Womanizer" appear in that song? more than 30 times. Haha.

Repeat made perfect. Yeah!

Randomness

Don't know why these few days I received a lot of anonymous' calls and sms. What the fuck, they trying to know about me but never let me know his and her name. What the heck. Where did they get my number from? One of them said get my number from Maxis' Friend Finder. Excuse me, I using Digi's line, not Maxis. Hate them. I trying to get their info, but they just keeping their "mouth" shut. Holy Shit! (Mr K.C.Cheong). Someone help me to stop them, they just annoying for me. One guy name Selvester Stallone, he just a bull-shit. When I say I am male, he stopped the conversation. "I though you are not a boy". "How I know whether you get the number correctly from Maxis? Wrong question" I replied, then he stopped. Lolx.

Sharing and caring are important for holding relationship. However I hate those people that no willing to share his or her sadness and happiness with his or her couple. What the hack? Can you treat him better? Although working from morning till evening, at least a call or sms a day can make him happy. Treat him better okay? If not I will "tampar" your face with my size 10 Converse shoes.

If I were a boy
I think I couldn't understand
How to feel to love a girl
I swear be a better man

Who can sponsor me to go to Beyonce's "I am ..." World Tour in Malaysia at 25 of September at Bukit Jalil Stadium? Please...

All the single ladies
Now put your hands up

Going to oversea soon, the so-called "Holidays" allow men to rest. Lolx. Planning to buy some Mooncakes for my mother at there. I miss her. Happy Mooncakes Festival. ^^

Please Forgive Me

To someone or maybe a group of people that really upset on me, I really sorry for what have I done to hurt someone that you all love too. I know I am very stupid and selfish to avoid all problems by leaving it behind. I know what have I done to made you all to hate me or maybe to "delete" me from yours memories. But I have to say sorry. Not only for the one I am hurting but also to all of you that looking good on this relationship. I willing to accept all of your bad perceptions on me and I know I deserve it for what have I done. Sorry, I am not dare to face you all. Please give me some time and time will tell because I know you all are really piss on me. Sorry.