First Semester in UTAR

Let me count, is like half month I never update anything in my blog and even my Facebook. I was busying with my exam last two weeks. Finally, the exam is over and I am exhausting seriously. I was studying from morning till night in school library and continue my studies at home and friends' house till midnight. Am I hardworking enough? Please never say YES, because I never do my revision before exam and by the time the final exam come to the corner, I was panic and dying for cover all the lecture had taught. It not gonna happen in next semester, PROMISE, I will go study in library during weekends.

The papers were hard seriously. Now I am worry about my result. Will it be 3.7, 3.3, 3.0, 2.0? Shit, making my life so miserable. Damn it. Anyway, thank you to ShuHui, Sotong Girl and Ivan, my "studymates" , friends in UTAR. Happy that meeting you all. Enjoy your holiday. I will inform you all whether our trip can make it or not. ^^.

Holiday~~~. The best part for this moments. I going back to Kuala Lumpur, the land of sin. Lolx. I planned for my one month holiday. ^^
1) KL pit stop - KL friends, Subang's soulmates, shopping, sleep, movie, nightlife and Jennifer. ^^
2) Melaka - Makan makan makan...
3) Singapore - Find my mother during Mother's Day in S'pore and friends as well.
4) Peneng - Makan makan makan...
Lots more. I think thats the major one. But I think time is not allow me to do so. Haih. Hope can do it all in one shot. I bored till die if I am locked here. Outing is my life.

Sign off for nap, never sleep well for two weeks due to stress of exam... Ciao~~~
PS  : I am coming now. ^^
PS' : I read it.

Contact lens

I just receive the new contact lens from Babe Jodie this morning. The 3 new contact lens are awesome man. Especially the purple one, the pattern they using is so outstanding and unique, I think I not dare to wear it. Lolx. I have 2 pairs of black, 1 pairs of blue, 1 pairs of grey, 1 pair of green and 1 pair of purple now. Am I too over about it? I can't try it when I first saw them as I am too tired these few day. However I will update some photo of it ASAP. Chill people.

I doze off twice in front of webcam just now. My friend just laugh at me. Haih. Maybe the weather killing me? Or I am too stress of my studies? Or I cannot focus as I open my Biology and Physics textbooks? I just feel tired. And the final exam left almost 12 days, and I haven't prepare for it. Damn it, my CGPA going to be lower down by several subjects like Physics and Biology. My coursework mark for Biology just 33.7 over 50. Still far away from my GPA 4.0, I think I should aim lower now, GPA 3.5 for Biology. (Full with tears) More coursework marks will coming out soon that going to tackle my confident. Shit, seriously I hate this part, this kind of feeling.

Have to prepare for my exam seriously. Then only I can enjoy my holiday with maximum happiness. Maybe I will turn off my PC from tomorrow onwards. Or I just on MSN that allow people to contact me? I need concentrate now, seriously.

Sign off for continue my revision
P/S: You better seek medical attention before you leave to Hong Kong, okay? Take care.

Tasteless Cheesecake

Chemistry class is replaced by Mr Ng as Ms Tan is on leave for few day. The joker of the day, Mr Ng, come in with a very weird bag. He called it handbag. OMG. Where is he from? Mars? Lolx. I was laughing non stop for the 1 hour session and not paying attention at all. i was like focusing on taking the picture of his awesome handbag. This is it.

I totally LMAO for it. Is a paper bag. Not even a paper bag, is a box of Acer monitor. Lolx. He said save environment. Really? Save money for save environment? The first one more suitable to him. Again, his mouth non-stop, extended our time for half an hour, wondering his mouth not tired at all. This Wednesday he asking us to go to his house for dinner again. He has other intention behind it. I not going to detail, is very sensitive regarding religious issue.

Cheesecake will turn me on seriously. I love cake, especially cheesecake. The enjoyment is like infinity and long lasting. I get one piece of it from my friend, is a Marble Cheesecake. However, I was not so enjoy it since we fought last night. I don't know what the hack the problems are and whats the problems hanging out with other friends. We fought for small matter. I keep bearing it. Seriously I pissed off when you drop my phone, I hate it. The Cheesecake is tasteless now is not meaningful. I asked Kelvin out for chilling, but he is not free. Therefore, sleeping is the nice one. I hate immature action. That silly steps taken. You not gonna get the "pity-ness" from people, but you will hear some laughing behind, seriously. Do and speak after you think, it may reduce a lot of friction.

Something exposed to the air. I let go myself to them. I was so happy when they support me. Thank you. And you have to be more careful when dealing with love thingy, is very complicated as you cannot imagine it. Good luck in your relationship. Next semester I will enter gym room in UTAR as i purposely arrange the time table for gym. Hope can build a nice body, but not hunks please. Hunk is disgusting, ew. Although is a nightmare for me, I have to face it right? So I ask one friend of mine come with me. Thanks first.

Miss Diana a.k.a. Miss Dan, thanks for spending your night with me. I gain something after our conversation. I know I still can crap after trapping in this village, bored place. Eventually I wanted to study, but it was awesome have a nice chat with you. Miss it. Anyway, I will go Melbourne one day if I got chance. (Don't doting on it please)

Well, is time for study.

Sign off

P/S: Not Applicable (Lolx. Will you angry with it? LMAO.)

Nice breakfast

What a nice day. People said a nice breakfast can make your day "nice". Yes, its work. Today I had my breakfast in Ipoh with Eric, friend from UTAR. We either go into Old Town White Coffee for Nasi Lemak and white coffee or McD for the breakfast. Finally we walked into McD for the breakfast. What the hack, I miss it so much. The last time I ate the MMcD breakfast is the day I having my Microeconomics exam in Taylor's, is like 1 year ago. OMG, I finally grab one meal after desperate for so long time.

This is my meal.

People are looking at me when I capture the photo of a non-living thing in McD. They think that I mad. Yes, I mad, so how? Are you going to fuck me up? Blek. (Sorry Eric, make you so embarrass this morning. Actually got people looking at us and you are the innocent one. >< ) Tata. When my meal is opened.

I miss the hash brown. And I eat it in very Sean's way. Haha. By using a tissue paper to absorb the excessive oil. Eric was shocked once he saw the amount of oil the tissue paper absorb. However, the oil is inside his stomach. Die faster. Lolx. I am so enjoying with the food and the people. We shared a lot of things, and I am like psychologist for him just now. Hope you know what am I talking about. ^^

Again, I went to Tesco kampar to buy my second pints of Haagen Dazs' coffee flavor. What a nice ice-cream. Damn it, I am addicted to it. Noel, you better don't break your promise as you said you gonna bring me to TGI Friday for that ice-cream. Haha. TGI Friday, I coming~~~. Mr Noel, just save up some money for my stomach. Lolx.

Loyal + Original + Vista + Eternal = Love. Love someone is a very easy thing, but love each other is a very hard and yet very rare. Is a very valuable and not to be wasted ever. Just like eating an ice-cream, the happiness is not long lasting but we have to make it long lasting by grabbing another pint of ice-cream. Loyal, we have to loyal to the love ones as he or she is our special one that we have to remaining maximum faithful and supporting each other. Original, keep the origin of love, the point from a couple love each other and till forever. Vista, human are imperfect, although your love ones have weakness, we have to see the "beautiful side" of your love one and cover the "ugly" with the "beautiful side" of your love ones. Eternal, love is about forever, not like playing a game, do not give up easily. Please love your LOVE, do not give up easily.

Sign off with full of LOVE

P/S: Wear a mask when you have convention in Hong Kong, do you dare? Hehe. LOVE you.

Hot and Cold

What a hot weather today. Fuck Kampar. Sweating within 5 minutes after out from bathroom, killing me. Not comfortable for study, not comfortable for sleep even lying on bed. Initially I opened my Biology textbook, though I want to study at least one chapter. However the bloody hotness turn me off when I open up the book. then I go bath again and have a nap before going out to do something.

I found out the cure for this "sickness" - Ice Cream. What the fuck, I am in heaven just now. Holding one box of Haagen Dazs that cost me RM30.90 from Tesco and eating it. What a enjoyment is that, is even nicer than having aircond in room or being hug. Long lasting happy, LOLX. Long time do not have this happiness since H20 in Subang is closed, a place that bitches and I often hanging out after class in Taylor's. I miss that moment.

I need some support now, emotional and mental support. I do not have the motivation for my final. I still very chill + relax = chillax in my Week 12. Oh gosh, three more weeks and theres no study week for me. But I think I can made it since I went for the devil training in Taylor's ADP that even more stress then UTAR, seriously. Haih, miss ADP now. It is so happening in ADP. I love the feeling there. Proud of myself that I went to the highest recognize University College in Malaysia. I learnt how to communicate with people, how to speak English, how to cope big stress, how to handle problems like studies, friendships, loves, financials, family and myself. Thanks American Transfer Degree Program of Taylor's University College, I will go back to study in your lake side campus one day. For sure I want to study there, maybe get my second Degree there?

Recently I found one scholarship for Actuarial Science, but I not dare to submit the form. I scare that the same thing happened again. Study half way, not enough money then stop. because they only sponsor me with RM30,000 annually, extra have to pay myself. I don't know whether my parents can afford the extra expenses or not. therefore I do not send the form out till now. I still thinking, my parents still thinking. I have a big dream, I want to study in oversea and get my Master of Actuarial Science either in US or Aussie. But now seems like everything is impossible, In this realistic world, materialism is the main power. If you have money, you are the winner in the world. But I never blame myself or my parents brought me here, at least I learn something that the millionaire do not experience before, I appreciate it.

Sign off with Ice-cream later

Ciao~

P/S: I love you. Muacksss.

Footprints in my sand

I found my slipper finally. Is under the bed. One of the dog took my slipper away and bite under the bed. LMAO. Is totally in pieces and I need a new one now. T T. Fuck that dog. FU. Slippers, shoes, clothes, and jeans are my next target. As well as prom dress, formal wear and bag of course. Damn it, gonna save it from now on. For my outfits and vacation as well.

Staring at the calender, as my exam is coming nearer and nearer, and I feel the nervous inside, but I never take up my steps - studying. I'm still playing with my networking applications and I wasted most of my time on online instead of studying for final. Damn it. Have to start later or tomorrow for fulfill someone wish.

I wondering that Beyonce Knowles a.k.a. really pregnant? She claimed that she loves baby when she saw her younger sister having a great time with her baby. And in some interview, she said she is happy that Jay-z put the ring on her and she wish to have a baby with Jay-z. It is good that Beyonce had pregnant as she will becoming more and more lovely and caring. However, I scare that once they got a baby, she going to stop her career and become a housewife for taking care their children. Or maybe she go to backstage that might not be so stress for her. Or maybe she open up a recording label to train new singer to become Fierce like her. We don't know. But what I know is, I inspired by her Sasha Fierce. I love you, Beyonce Knowles. (Why I am ... Tour do not have a DVD? It is awesome concert, better than The Beyonce Experience Tour.)

I feel so empty just now. Once a while, the feeling of emptiness strike me and made me break down sometimes. I thinking, what have I done for the last 19 years? Sometime when I look back, I feel mixed. happy, sad, cheer, frustrated, easy, harsh, sweet, tough, smile, tears. My life full of conflicts. Should I appreciate it or hate myself? I need real friend, that know me well physically and emotionally. Is only one person in this world can have the title. I wish you are here just now, seriously. I miss our time we hanging out last time and its been for a while, a year maybe we did not meet each other. I miss you so in sudden. (Footprints in my sand by Leona Lewis, specially dedicate for you. ^^)

I want go gym, desperately. I have to sharpen up for my outlooks, look nicer and better with clothes and as well as nude too. One of my friend (I don't wanna mention name out. If I do so, I will get bite. Ouch~), we have planning for gym since Feb till now. Lolx. I need flesh and some muscle now. Please, no more skinny.

Sign off with HUNGRY MODE

P/S: Miss you here, sleep tight and goodnight.

Chillaxing

Physics test, you failed me. So sad. The questions are hard but I still can solve half of the questions, not bad not bad. (But it doesn't mean that I will get the correct one. Sometime apply the correct equation but didn't get the answer. Thats why I am so fuck up by Physics.) That means my scarifying for one night is worth it. But no last minutes study, is suffering. It make me sick, I just have a simple sandwich for my brunch, no appetite for eating. Once reach home, straight away lying on bed after bath. Damn tired, exhausted.

After completed so many task this few week, now have to focus on my final. Is around the corner, probably 17 days more. Is not enough for me if I study last minutes again. I remember one quote by Sarah Chong, one of my bitch. She said, "平时不屌书,现在给书屌" (You didn't fuck the book right now, you will fucked by the book later on.) Awesome quote by Adibah. Lolx. I miss her so much, is she having good time there? Time to backup my previous topic in order fulfill my requirement.

One of my slippers is MIA, missing in action. Fuck up. No slipper for me and I was like jumping back from others house back to my house with only one leg. Pity me. Fuck that dog. (I don't know which one eat my slipper but I sure is one of the dog there.) T T

I want go back to KL now as I can hang out with my friends there. I miss the air in KL. Miss the environment. I want go The Library again, best chilling place. 69 in Time Square for fortune telling and tarots. Blue bar for drinking. TGI Friday and Big Apple. ^^ Saving money for Topshop and others again. Trying to be fresh for next semester. Or stylo? Planning to go to S'pore, Malacca and Penang for semester break. Can't wait it anymore.

I am so bored as I trapped in home now. Outing, anyone?
XoXo

Sign off for studies
Chillaxing

Well done

"I can see yours effort in the slide and it is good. You guys did a good job. Marvelous." (Ms Puspha) Is real, that line is out from her mouth.  She is those kind of people seldom give compliments in this way, either she shoot you indirectly or she talks bad about your work. (Don't let her see please) Lolx. Partners and I did a great job for the lecture presentation. Finally I can relax for 1 minute for the presentation of entire semester. However after 1 minute, I have to come back to reality world - Physics test. Ouch. It is killing me. I never sleep for day. I keep awake for my revision as I never open the book for the last few lectures and now I am suffering. I tried to condense my study scoop for study 4 chapters in one midnight. OMG, I surprise that I am still awake due to 5 cup of coffee within 10 hours. I going to addicted to it, Holy shit. Anyway, I finished studying it and now is around 06:19am, just allow me chill and crap in my blog. ^^

I viewed back the recording of my presentation. Is a good show. However, in the last part, I suddenly forget what I want to said. It just spoiled the whole presentation, is like a black dot on a white paper. Sorry dude. And one more thing, my legs damn long~~~. maybe I should go for XxXxX. Haha. But have to gain more flesh first. Eat Eat Eat. Aka Aka Eating, LMAO.

Although I am "well done" in my studies so far, am I very "well done" in my life. I do not know. My life is miserable. Is like an economic cycle, I been through my life "peak" and "recession" process. But I appreciate that God sent me to this world, to my mum's little stomach. ^^ It is harsh and tough sometimes, but I view thing with different side. Think positivity, its making my life more interesting. At least I learnt more than most of the people and I taking the advantage of it. Thanks to myself for making me to Sasha Fierce.

Before I sign off, I would like to use my blog to curse some people out there. Although I know cursing others is not good, I am so pissed off about that and ya, I need to curse. Please appreciate what you have, and beware of your mouth. taking advantage off people and not saying thank you, fuck you all bitches. Son and daughter of slut.

Sign off to school.
(Good luck to myself for Physics ^^)

Oh my God

First OMG

This week, still I fuck up. I have to complete so many tasks in this week and the following weeks before final. Left 2 weeks, and I haven't start revision for all subject. How I going to handle that? No study week for me and I think I going to heaven especially my Biology and Physics. However, the re-test of Physics, surprisingly I did quite well, much much better than the first test. And my lab reports score almost full marks where I can pick up my confident back for this subject. Keep it on Edan Travis. Opps, is Travis Fierce.

Second OMG

Something funny happened in campus today. I am totally laugh my ass off when I recall back. LMAO. I was fetching back my friend A back to her room to take her stuff. And girl B called me. She asked me to go to computer lab in Block B for printing as her report is in my pendrive for our class at 1400 (2.00pm). Then when I parked my car and walking to block B, it was 1405 already. Somemore I met my lecture when I heading to block B while he is heading to block D for our class. I am like "OMG, I going to be late for class. Shit." Then I tried to print the stuff ASAP. God not bless me, 5 PCs we have tried, the PCs is failure to detect my pendrive and 2 PCs do not support 07' Words format. Holy shit, it was 1420 and we decided to go back to class as we late for the class for almost half and hour and B just copy and paste with my format I print extra for her. When I reach my class in block D, it was 1430 and I keep searching my bag on the rack. My bag was not there. OMG~~~!!! I left my bag at block B's PC lab. I walked back to block B and heading back to block D again. I was like sweating, like bathing. I was late for the class for 45 minutes. By the time I entered the class, classmates started to laugh at me. "What happened to you? (With smile and laugh)" So embarrass. LMAO. Even lecturer said, "Edan, you late for class right? Signed your attendance? (With smile also)" Lolx.

Third OMG

Tomorrow girl A and me going to face something challenging. She going to Ipoh for her JPA interview. Good luck to her. And me, pity me, have to do presentation in front of a lecture hall. T T sobing. It is tough for me as I get nervous easily. We do not have enough time for prepare the slide as Ms just give us 4 days to do our slides. Although tomorrow I going to wear a formal wear for presentation, I will still nervous like hell and hope not shaking while holding the mic. 

Fourth OMG

One of my best friend get dumped by his boyfriend. I know it is harsh for you as you seldom fall in love so easily. Just learn some lessons and see thing from positive side, hope you are okay now, and he doing the right choice. If you are single, we both can attend single parties and enjoy. ^ ^

And one of my friend is fighting with his loves one. Don't so upset on your baby, he will know your worries one days. Remember to treat Almo good, feed him with cheesecake. 

Another one get attached, maybe. Just be careful before and when in relationship. Anything just ask me. I am tool free consultant. Awesome?

Others two of them going to leave to US for their Degree. I going to miss you all like hell, babes.

P/S: I miss you here badly. Want to hear your voice before I go to bed. Good night.

Sign off.

Travis Fierce

This week I had observed so many objects, a lot of matter happened around me. One of my friend have a sudden mood changes. Why this world is so unfair? Those who not deserve for love can get their "unwell" love, however those who deserve for love does not have their true love. What the fuck is that? Just hope you are okay now. I always love you here. ^^

Next is about a little boy, one of my friend from KL.Why he is so slutty recently? 3 month before this happened, he looks like normal, a very cool yet funny guy. But once I know him more, SHIT. all of his evilness come out. He start to become bitchy, slutty. He think his outfits very diva-ish, but SORRY to say, "Is not that good if put on your body." Now even worse, he let everyone knows that he is a homosexual guy. What the fuck, this does not means that you have the fame, you just own CHILDISH. Bless you. "I would not guide you anymore, just let yourself figure out the bad side of the world. whatever I said to you you never listen, so maybe I have to shut up."

The matter that killing me now is my presentation. My lecture said I raised some strong points in my presentation, so she wants me to change my slide a little bit and present it in front of 200+ people. Holy craps, how I going to overcome my nervous. I have no confident on myself no matter how much effort I put in because some of the nightmare made me that. I going to die.

HEAT~~~!!! Beyonce Knowles's personal fragment HEAT is out now. But I think is only in States but not in M'sia. I want it so much as my collection because Bee is just a diva for me.I dreamed about this perfume yesterday and I try it in my dream. Is seducing and hot that really like Beyonce / Sasha Fierce. She inspired me, bring me up and cheer me up. Recently I was listening to all of her album, from Dangerously in Love to B'Day and then I am ... Sasha Fierce, the most potential album is the 3rd one. We can see both extreme side of her. I am ... is a soft, beautiful and lovely side of her. ...Sasha Fierce is the wild, diva, Beyocilious of her. I love it very very much. That where Edan Travis and Travis Fierce come into my life... I am ... Travis Fierce.

I desperate for going gum room now. However I do not want going to UTAR's gym room. It is too funny and silly. 1) Why a gym room so cold one? It will hurt our receptors and nervous system when we sweating in a low temperature room, and easily get cold. 2) People can see from cafeteria to the gym room when they having meal down there. Is funny when I having meal down there and saw a guy or girl doing gym, DISGUSTING. 3) A lot of friends there that making me feel embarrass. 4) A lot of hunks there. I am the smallest in size one and I might be discriminated and people will roll their eyes on me.

Countdown for my final, 3 more weeks. Is a very tough time because my final is like ONE SHOT in a row. All my test is fall on one week, and within one week have to sit for one paper for each day. Stressful. I do not think I can score high because my Biology and Physics's test making me death. Hope that final wont be so hard. After that week, I am totally free, for 1 month only. Ish.

Again, recommend a song for you all. "Smash into you" by Beyonce Knowles from her 3rd multi-platinum album, I am ... Sasha Fierce. Is a very nice and meaningful song that touch and attract my heart when I first hear it , like 2 years ago. Now waiting for her brand new album, every fans of her is waiting for her 4th explosive album. Go Bee.